Post 26 Faith and Trust
I have faith in God. I know that He not only exists, but He lives within me, giving me life and peace. He talks with me and I talk with Him.
I have faith in God but from my perspective, He let me down. I am having trouble trusting Him. I gave Him my life to use anyway He wants, and the first thing He did was to take me to the desert. I thought I was going to die.
He took me to the mountain top. Nice view, but it’s cold up there and I could hardly breathe.
He took me to the beach and I nearly drowned.
He took me through storms and tornadoes and floods.
He took me through hell and I know the loneliness and suffering.
Now, after forty years, He has fulfilled every promise He ever gave to me either through an impression while I was studying His word, or in a literal dream while I was young. Dreams that I had over and over, so often that I named them. They have all come true.
As He fills these last dreams, promises or predictions, when I imagine looking into His eyes, I realize all this was necessary. All this was to bring me to the point where He could begin to use me. What He had in mind is much bigger than me. Nevertheless, trust is hard.
Now, I remember the words He spoke to me the day I was born. Yes, I remember being born. He was there and we had a conversation. He had a special task for me. One that only I could fulfill, but it would not happen until late in life. And the road would be very rough. I did not want to hear or see, the bitterness of the middle of my life, so I asked if that meant if “I could do as I please until He called me.” That made the road very rough.
Faith is easy. Trust is hard. However recently, I can see He has fulfilled His every promise while making more promises. Not the ones I want, but promises nevertheless.
Faith is easy. Trusting through trials: that takes experience and practice.
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Written: 11/4/17